Wednesday, February 28, 2007

The Big TWO O

Ok.. I know I'm making a big deal out of this but I'm gonna be in my twenties tomorrow.

No more being a teenager anymore. No more being in my teens anymore.

I'm officially out of my teenage years!


I feel a sudden wave of sadness. No idea why. I have been dreading this day for a few weeks now. Why? Its just a small 20 right?

I can hear you guys saying,

"Please la! You're only 20! What am I? I'm in my fifties! You're complaining?"

Ok.. I'm not sure whether I have anybody that is in their fifties reading my blog but still..

What have I achieved for the past 19 years of my life? Other than going to school and completing my secondary education, I have not achieved very big things.

I'm not the best badminton player in Malaysia.. or the best Ping Pong player in the district,

Hell.. I can't play any sports!

I'm have not win any Spelling Contest, Debate Contest, or watever contest they have now in school. I have lead a very normal school life. Nothing to shout about.

Other than primary school, I have not gotten no.1 for a very long time. I'm not like super excellent in my studies. Just average results.

Even though I play the piano and just got my Grade 8 certificate but I am totally terrible in playing the piano. I can only play my exam pieces! And that is only 3 of them! Other pianist can virtually play anything they want when they attend friends gathering but I would rather not let people know I can play the piano.

I am that bad. Not that I hate playing the piano. I actually love playing it. I'm just not good at it.

I'm terrible in arts too. My dad is a super creative artist. But none of his genes has been passed down to me. I can't draw. I hated art lessons when I was studying. I have no creative juice inside me at all. Period!

Ok. So let's get this straight. I'm not good in sports, not good academically either. Don't have any talent in music or arts.

Then what am I good at?

Ok.. I'm having an identity crises now. HelP!!!

Lets think hard. There must be something I'm good at. Right? Right? I'm sure I'm not that terrible.

Oh dear.. I can't think of any. Zilch! None watsoever!

HELP!!! I'm scared! What will life have install for me? Soon I will have to go out into the real world and fend for myself. No more protection from mummy and daddy.

In a blink of an eye, I'll be 25, then 30, then 35 then 40. Then? Oh dear.. I'm hyperventilating now. HeLP!!!

Happy Birthday to me.. =(


Benjamin said...

happy 20th birthday! don't worry about getting old, you'll get the hang of it!

Terra Shield said...

Happy twentieth...

I remember turning from 19 to 20, and I made a whole lot of noise too...

Anyway, you'll get used to it :)

Janet a.k.a. "Wonder Mom" said...

Happy Big 2-0...

It's easy, we all do it...

When I turned 20, I don't think I came home that night...gah. I had lotsa fun.

Enjoy it. While you can!

zewt said...

no no no, i am not going to tell you i am fifties... cos i am not! hhahaha....

grade 8 piano huh... hmmm, learning music is such a privilege...

-Princess Shin- said...

Thanks! Haha.. I'll get the hang of growing older you mean? Haha. thanks anyway! =)

terra shield,
I think I'm really making a huge deal out of it. Haha..

Thanks ya! I'll have no choice but to get use to it! =(

janet a.k.a "wonder mom",
Thanks my dear blogger friend! You were certainly a wild gal. I'm home blogging now! Quite sad! Haha..

haha.. nice to know that you're not in your fifties! haha..

Yeah.. Learning music is a privilege. Do you learn?

Keshi said...

hey Happy Bday girl! Just 20? WOW u've got ur whole life ahead of u...just take it easy and face each 'day' as it comes ;-)


Menchie said...

Happy birthday!!! It's my youngest sister's birthday today too!

You may not be able to do a lot of things really well but hey, you're still young and have your whole life ahead of you. Have a great day!

tkkerouac said...

Happy Birthday! Enjoy!