Ok.. I know I'm making a big deal out of this but I'm gonna be in my twenties tomorrow.
No more being a teenager anymore. No more being in my teens anymore.
I'm officially out of my teenage years!
I feel a sudden wave of sadness. No idea why. I have been dreading this day for a few weeks now. Why? Its just a small 20 right?
I can hear you guys saying,
"Please la! You're only 20! What am I? I'm in my fifties! You're complaining?"
Ok.. I'm not sure whether I have anybody that is in their fifties reading my blog but still..
What have I achieved for the past 19 years of my life? Other than going to school and completing my secondary education, I have not achieved very big things.
I'm not the best badminton player in Malaysia.. or the best Ping Pong player in the district,
Hell.. I can't play any sports!
I'm have not win any Spelling Contest, Debate Contest, or watever contest they have now in school. I have lead a very normal school life. Nothing to shout about.
Other than primary school, I have not gotten no.1 for a very long time. I'm not like super excellent in my studies. Just average results.
Even though I play the piano and just got my Grade 8 certificate but I am totally terrible in playing the piano. I can only play my exam pieces! And that is only 3 of them! Other pianist can virtually play anything they want when they attend friends gathering but I would rather not let people know I can play the piano.
I am that bad. Not that I hate playing the piano. I actually love playing it. I'm just not good at it.
I'm terrible in arts too. My dad is a super creative artist. But none of his genes has been passed down to me. I can't draw. I hated art lessons when I was studying. I have no creative juice inside me at all. Period!
Ok. So let's get this straight. I'm not good in sports, not good academically either. Don't have any talent in music or arts.
Then what am I good at?
Ok.. I'm having an identity crises now. HelP!!!
Lets think hard. There must be something I'm good at. Right? Right? I'm sure I'm not that terrible.
Oh dear.. I can't think of any. Zilch! None watsoever!
HELP!!! I'm scared! What will life have install for me? Soon I will have to go out into the real world and fend for myself. No more protection from mummy and daddy.
In a blink of an eye, I'll be 25, then 30, then 35 then 40. Then? Oh dear.. I'm hyperventilating now. HeLP!!!
Happy Birthday to me.. =(