Disappointment

Have you ever plan something to its very last detail and all you need to do is wait for the right day to follow your plan when suddenly, everything is all crush?

Not because of someone else or unforeseen circumstances.

All because of your own carelessness. Your very own fault. No one to blame but yourself.

That although somebody else is the whole reason why your plan failed, ultimately it is yourself that is to blame? That your perfect week ahead, or perfect holiday is totally ruined because of one small mistake? And if that mistake didn't happen, if you were not sooo careless, you would be enjoying your perfect week?

Ahh...!!!! My heart is broken to pieces now. And the worst thing is, I cannot be angry at anyone, especially not the person that spoiled my plan, because ultimately, it was my fault. It was me that lead to a change of events. Domino effect. From one single small mistake, to the destruction of my long thought perfect plan.

I know I'm overreacting but..

I'm totally crushed. I'm torn. I'm.. hopeless.

I shall hide in my dark corner for the next few days thinking about my mistake.