Yeah.. What we're having now is life. No one can escape life. No one can escape death. We believe that we're in this world with a mission to accomplish and with that, we continue with our respective life and try to make the best of it.
But why do we have to face so many challenges and problems? And make choices that are sometimes just wrong?
Last Wednesday I attended one of my dad's friend's wake. He was a 52 year old man who passed away on Monday night in bed due to stroke. It was a total shock for all of us. I didn't even believe it when I receive the message saying that he passed away. I tried hard to remember when was the last time I saw him and I couldn't remember it at all. There was no preparations, telling us he was sick or something, None! Zilch. Just boom, a sms to tell us he has passed away.
I don't really know this uncle very well but I know he was a super nice guy that works hard for his family. He was kind to his friends and made jokes with everyone. I will always remember him as the guy that wears a small bag on his waist and sits motorbikes wherever he goes. And that he always teases me.
Life is so fragile sometimes. One minute you are talking to this person and next, he's gone. And this is just a friend of my dad. Not someone that is close to you. I can't imagine talking to someone I love dearly and knowing at the next moment that I will not be seeing this person ever again.
This is the first time that I have been to a person funeral that is around the same age as my parents. I'm not getting any younger, as I slowly grow older I know that my parents are getting older too and it sometimes frightens me. What will I do if something does happen to either of them?
And for these past few days I have been complaining to myself day in day out how terrible my mum is treating me. How sometimes I feel that she doesn't treat me as a daughter but as someone else. That she is jealous of me. Of something that I don't know. Sometimes I even think of moving out! I get so frustrated sometimes.
But this is life isn't it? You just don't appreciate what is around you until its gone.