I havent missed my family in a while. I miss them but not painfully that kind. I always hear my mum's friends telling her that when their daughters went overseas to study, they would call back home the first few weeks and cry on the phone telling their mums that they miss home.
I have never done that. I dunno why. Maybe I have been really busy with my college stuff or that I'm stronger or something, but I have never called home crying. The only time that I was close to doing that was somewhere in August, when California had the forest fire and the haze around town reminded me of Malaysia, but my mum never called so I didnt cried in the phone.
Until now..
Maybe its because I'm living with my Chinese friend and seeing her in the restaurant meeting her parents for the first time after 4 months away from home and seeing her with her grandfather, uncles and aunties made me think of my own family too...
Maybe its because her family speaks Cantonese and after being in a English speaking environment so much, it kinda reminds me of home, the difference is that I don't have my family around.
Though I have totally no confidence in speaking Cantonese myself.
Maybe its the familiarity of eating Chinese food after having bacon and eggs so much that it reminds me of home, only the difference is that I don't have my family around.
Maybe its because of being in a Chinese home and seeing so many familiar things that my house would have too that reminds me of home, only the difference is that it is not my home.
I have been trying to get my dad for the whole morning but because of the time difference, I only finally managed to get hold of them late in the night at 10pm! For some reason, after hearing my mum's voice, I burst out crying and did that for the whole 30 minutes!
Now, just the mere conversation of how much I miss my family kinda brings tears to my eyes now.
Somebody said I don't miss home anymore.
Well.. I do. Its just I have to make the best out of not being able to go home.
1 comment:
That’s pretty sad Princess Chin. I know how it is when you can't see or touch the people you really care about. Just hang in and everything will work out. Have you thought about maybe using videoconferencing? It is really great for this type of situation, you can actually see their expressions and reactions, it is so much better than a phone call. I work with a company called ooVoo that would allow you and five other people to all conference at once. I know its not like giving a big hug to your parents but it is a little step closer.
I hope this connects you to your family in a better way!
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