Sunday, January 28, 2007

Shadows

Remember on my last entry I wrote that I have a terrible relationship with my brother? Well.. things have started to improved slightly. L:ast time we use to exchange one or two sentences to each other for like a year. Now.. its more like a week. Not bad for a terrible sister like me right?

COMMUNICATION is the key man!!!! Yeah!!! Wahaha...

Where did the change come from? You ask! Well.. I couldn't stand that I had such relationship with my younger not so baby brother anymore. I was tired of comparing myself with other friends of mine that have brother or sisters whom are also their best friends. I realize that the change should not come from my brother coz that's the way he is. I can't change him. He can be rude and defensive all he wants but if I am like that too... we would go no where.

So.. I made a determination to change. To be the one to make the first move. To be the one that actually start a conversation with him. Talk to him regarding what interest him the most now. Anime... Studies... Lost... Everything that a hot and pimply budding teenager is interested in. I am after all the big sister. And it was not easy I tell you.. seriously... I was so used to totally ignoring my brother and him to me, being indifferent to each other, pretending that each other don't really exist that I totally forgot how to have a conversation with him! It was all awkward and stuff! Imagine that! This was how bad my relationship was.

But it was definitely rewarding when he started to open up and tell me stuff. Though we still don't communicate much but I'm proud to say that I know I have a brother now. Not an invisible brother. This is what Human Revolution is all about. To change your inner self for the better. And I'm acting like what all big sister should be. Be there for them when they need you. =)


Took these 2 photos when I was in KK, Karambrunei. Nice peaceful resort. Nothing better else to do.




I somehow look fat! Or maybe I am... =(




My brother is no longer shorter than me! He's actually taller than me and he's so proud of it. Always purposely stand next to me in front of the mirror to remind me that fact. And him gloating about it. Sigh... I'm short.

GOod luck to me on continuing to challenge myself! And to you too!


The heart of one person moves another's. ... If one's own heart is closed, then the doors of other people's hearts will also shut tight. On the other hand, someone who makes all those around him or her into allies, bathing them in the sunlight of spring, will be treasured by all.

-Daisaku Ikeda-



8 comments:

Maria said...

hello Princess Shin! are you already in OC? i didn't realize you wanted some weather info about orange county... For me, it's pretty cold esp when it gets in the 50s. It'd be good if you look up weather info on msn.com, just key in Aliso Viejo, CA when asked for the location.

good luck in your studies and yes - COMMUNICATION is key! esp if you are living far from your family. :)

terra shield said...

This kind of thing always happens amongst siblings, especially when we grow older... when my sister and I were younger, we used to fight so much (sampai bergusti-gusti on the floor!), but now we're like best friends...

Like you said, communication is key :D

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-Princess Shin- said...

maria,
Hello! I'll be going in August. Thanks for the information! You're a doll! =)

terra shield,
at least you fight. You do communicate, just differently. Haha.. I dont even do that! Weird. Lucky u to have a sister as your best friend.

huaenhaoyang,
em.. thanks.

Menchie said...

Hey Princess,
I'm glad that you have started to bridge the gap between you and your brother. There is nothing better than having a close relationship with your siblings. It's worth every effort.

Janet a.k.a. "Wonder Mom" said...

I'm not all that close with my brother and I hate it. I wish I was friends with him...But it's just not the way its turning out. And he's 10 years older than me...so I can't change him now.

I love those pictures. Very creative.

krystyna said...

Hi Princess Shin!
You mad good decision! Congratulation! We can't change pepole, but we can change yourself!
Good luck!

-Princess Shin- said...

menchie,
yeah.. i know..! Hehe.. They're the only family you'll ever have. Thanks for the support! =)

janet a.k.a "wonder mom",
Never say never. =) Have no regrets in ur life. The most important thing is that the change muz come from you. Good luck!

krystyna,
Thank you! =) Yeah.. the change muz definitely come from yourself! Take care!