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Anyone know of a better site to blog? This Blogger thing is getting on my nerves.. there's always a problem somewhere or another! Argh...!!! Help!!! Y can't my blog be republish? What's wrong with my index???

Poor Husband

Haha... this is super cute... I received it in my e-mail yesterday and just thought that I would share with u... haha... Enjoy!

Wife : Where is the money?

Wife: Show me your pockets!




Husband : I will not give you the money!!! You always spend all of my salary! Booohoooo!!!
Wife : Ahhh ... there it is .

Wife : Okay now move a side . I'm going shopping.

Wife : Thanks Sweetheart! Bye! :)

Poor husband right? But having such a cute wife... should not be a problem right? =)

Interview with Dr. Lawrence E. Carter

Dr. Lawrence E.Carter, a renown peace activist was recently in Malaysia and Singapore for a short visit.

Here's a brief description of Dr.Lawrence Edward Carter.

Lawrence Edward Carter Sr., is the first Dean of the Martin Luther King Jr. International Chapel and tenured Professor of Religion, and College Curator at Morehouse College since 1979. He is also an adjunct professor at the Morehouse School of Medicine in the Master of Public Health Program. For forty-five years, Dr. Carter has studied and worked in fourteen American universities, colleges, and professional schools, spoken at over eighty different colleges, universities, and seminaries, and received over five-hundred speaking engagements from eighteen denominations, and traveled to thirty-three foreign countries. He has made over sixty radio and television appearances, including nationwide in England, Canada, Japan, New Zealand, Australia, South Africa, and continent wide in Africa.

In this particular video, he talked about the importance of peace and whether it is still relevant in today's society. Go ahead and enjoy! =)



Interesting video. A bit short for my liking but nevertheless inspirational!

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This is pretty cool.. I can make a t-shirt out of blog! Literally! Super cool... Imagine wearing it on the streets advertising for my baby blog!!! Too bad it's expensive and u have to buy it thru the internet.. =( No credit card for me... Dunno how those ppl made it though.. u juz key in ur blog address and it will fit in all the words all by itself! Clever right? Technology nowadays... Amazing! haha.. try it at snapshirts yourself! =)

My amazing Imaginary readers..

Look!!! I do have readers!!! haha.. But how come there's more readers from United States than my own beloved country? So ironical.. and the States is half way across the globe! Amazing!!! Alas.. Malaysians don't love me? =( boohooo... I think I'm gonna migrate to US then.. I feel the love there.. bye bye Malaysia! You dun appreciate me.. >.<

		Country/Region/City		Visits		P/Visit		G1/Visit

1.		United States		74		1.41
2.		Malaysia		70		1.91
3.		Singapore		15		1.13
4.		Canada		9		1.22
5.		Philippines		6		1.33
6.		United Kingdom		5		1.20
7.		Thailand		4		1.25
8.		China		2		1.00
9.		Sweden		2		1.00
10.		Australia		2		1.00

Totals:

206

1.50

0

0

YAHOO!!! I do have readers.. not a lot but fair enough.. hehe.. muarx!

An Inspring Experience by Soka Gakkai International Youth

I received an e-mail the other day from one of my gal-friends. The e-mail was about how this gal from India manage to overcome her problems and achieve her deepest desires through Nichiren Daishonin's practise. Soka Gakkai International is an buddhist organization that aims to promote peace, culture and education. It's membership has grown to over 190 countries all over the

world. Members pray to the Gohonzon, which is the object of worship. By praying to the gohonzon, we will be able to see our own weaknesses and be able to overcome watever problems we have. Sensei is our SGI president, Daisaku Ikeda.

Just wanted to share her very inspiring experience. =)


Pavitra Kavya Rao,
Student Division Kick-off Meeting,
Santa Ana Community Centre,
September 24, 2006.


Good Morning Everyone!

Today I am sharing my recent experience with deepest gratitude to the Gohonzon & Sensei. My name is Pavitra and I am a sophomore student at Soka University of America.

18th of June, 2006 was my nineteenth birthday and the day I received my dismissal letter from Soka University of America. Soka University of America has been my dream since elementary school and on that day I felt the pain of seeing my dream break down in front of my eyes.

When my mother became a member of Bharat Soka Gakkai, I was young. I observed her doing morning and evening prayers very diligently and chanting long hours of Daimoku. As I noticed positive changes in our family, I started attending Gakkai meetings with my mother. The atmosphere at the meetings gave me joy and I felt a strong bond developing with Sensei in my heart. My leaders shared about Sensei’s life with me.

At the age of 7, I started praying to study in the Soka School .

In 1997, when I was 10 years old, Sensei visited India and I was fortunate to encounter Sensei when I, along with other Future Division members danced in front of Sensei. I had an eye contact with Sensei and my bond strengthened and I felt a great inner transformation. Seeing Sensei became the turning point of my life. Seeing my mentor gave me the confidence to achieve the impossible dream of studying at Soka University of America.

I had many experiences in faith. My personality changed from an intensely introverted to an outgoing, confident person. Improved financial karma, developing the ability to becoming a theatre actress, good relations with people to name a few.

I also always felt responsible about Zadenkai. I felt the need to become the one strong lion that would stand by Ikeda Sensei.

I made Soka University of America my academic dream college. From a failing student to an average student to excelling in academics it was a challenge. But so was the dream of Soka University of America. In my high school, especially I was faced with many challenges but managed to overcome them through following correct faith, practice and study. Keeping Soka University of America as my only option of college too helped strengthen my determination.

When I got admission to the fifth class of Soka University of America on March 16th, 2005 I felt that I had won. I was very happy. Little did I know that the challenges had only begun?

Nichiren Daishonin writes in the Gosho, Dragon Gate “In China there is a waterfall called the Dragon Gate. Its waters plunge a hundred feet, more swiftly than an arrow shot by a strong archer. It is said that thousands of carp gather in the basin below, hoping to climb the falls, and that any which succeed will turn into a dragon. However, not a single carp out of a hundred, a thousand or even ten thousand can climb the falls, not even after ten or twenty years. Some are swept away by the strong currents, some fall prey to eagles, hawks, kites and owls, and others are netted, scooped up, or even shot with arrows by fishermen who line either bank of the wide falls. Such is the difficulty of a carp becoming a dragon.”

I too had determined such a big Dream. Obviously the difficulties were going to be many.

My knee injury in August 2006 made me miss classes for long. This was the starting of my trials and challenges. I dipped in studies. And due to a dismal performance in the first semester, I was put on academic probation in the spring 2006 semester. I did not tell my parents or friends as I thought they would worry and I was confident to pull through. I was bogged down when I did not become an RA, SOL etc. I found that everything I aspired for did not happen. I seemed to have used up my good fortune in getting the admission to Soka University of America. I was also harboring doubts and complaints and was constantly questioning as to why is this happening to me when I have been practicing for so long?

During this period of dilemma, I was experiencing a feeling of false confidence which made me arrogant and feel that I would pull through easily. I underestimated this problem and instead of looking inwards, I seek the law outside. Instead of relying on the strategy of the Lotus Sutra, I applied my own strategies.

Therefore I was very shocked to receive my grades, on the day I was leaving for home for the summer, which showed that I had 0.18 points, less than what the school required. I realized that dismissal was imminent. I left for India with a heavy heart.

When I reached home I still couldn’t inform my parents about this shocking news of my academic dismissal. I still hoped to petition and return to Soka University of America.

The letter from Soka University of America reached my home on June, 18th. Although my parents were shattered, they promised to stand by me. I saw my mother fight in faith with a renewed vigor. This made me realize the importance of the three pillars of our practice - Faith, Practice and Study. Last year, although I would chant and attend meetings, I was not able to study Gosho or New Human Revolution. I was becoming lazy in faith. My complaining attitude and neglect to the inner details of my life was a result of my disregard to the Gohonzon.

However, this time around, I had no complaints in my heart. I realized that losing by a minute margin was a message from the Gohonzon and I needed to understand with my life. This was an opportunity to grow in faith and as a person. I always remained in high life condition. I took guidance. I was told to attack this problem with Daimoku and pray to understand the purpose of studying in Soka University of America. Towards this I started chanting longer hours of Daimoku and read Sensei’s guidance to the Students Division in Newsletters, New Human Revolution like Young Eagles chapter. I worked hard for the July Youth Meeting in India . I felt lot of negativity coming out from within but I continued to work and praying for my petition to be accepted by Soka University of America. I was helping in writing the script of the play on Rabindranath Tagore, the Nobel laureate who founded the Vishwa Bharati University then called Shantiniketan. Sensei had received a prestigious award from this university in May, 2006.

The more I prayed, the more negativity surfaced. It was an intense internal struggle but many members and seniors supported me and stood by me. Also, following the three guidelines of faith, practice and study really helped me. I was also able to act in the play. The play was a roaring success and was highly appreciated by all. It was all due to an excellent teamwork. I made many friends in the process.

I now received the long awaited reply from the petition committee. They said that I can join Soka University of America in spring 2007 after completing 12 units of college course from any accredited college in the United States . I was shattered thinking that I will never see Soka University of America again... never see the wonderful friends I had made over the last year. I stepped up my Daimoku and spoke to the Dean. He agreed to allow me to take these units in India . But admissions to colleges in India were over by May and there is no semester system in Indian colleges. I realized this would mean a setback of more than two years before reapplying to Soka University of America for admission. The situation was IMPOSSIBLE. Following lines of Sensei gave me hope.

“Result is a reflection of your faith in the Gohonzon. Whatever you are thinking in front of the Gohonzon will be true for you. Are you thinking failure or victory? Are you trying to tell the Gohonzon how to solve your problems or are you turning over your heart’s desire with unlimited trust to the Gohonzon? The Gohonzon’s power is beyond the comprehension of our minds. This is why we call it mystic. Our challenge is to dream of results as big as the power of the Gohonzon, which has no limit. With this attitude of faith, you can tap the infinite power of joy, gratitude and victory. If you find you are stuck, pray to release the chains of doubt & fear clouding your mind of faith. Pray for unbounded confidence & courage to win over your past & joyfully step into your bright future.”

The more the situation became impossible more was the support I received from my leaders. I got the encouragement to chant 10 hours everyday and I was able to do 6-7hrs. Day after day I challenged to do longer hours of Daimoku and studied Sensei’s guidance to understand my true purpose of studying in Soka University of America.

I kept Aug 18th as a deadline and fought in faith. I helped with the elementary school division meetings to become joyful and also participated in Zadenkai and study meetings. The communication from Soka University of America on 18th August was negative. I kept 24th and then 30th August as next deadlines. But the situation remained negative. My original ticket which was booked to the 4th of September too got cancelled. Every time I felt shattered my faith & practice and the support of leaders pulled me up. I tried to rise like the phoenix as per Sensei’s guidance. School was starting on the 7th September.

I decided to do the 12 units from a vocational college and apply to Soka University of America in spring 2007. When I wrote to the IERF, I received a message that they do not recognize this college. I had no other option now and was shocked as this would mean that I could not join even in the Spring Semester. This probably also meant that I would never be able to go back to Soka University of America.

It was the night of Sep 5th and with two days to go. I made fresh resolves in faith and determined to live as a Soka student. That night I realized as to why this had happened to me?

1. Ikeda Sensei joined faith when he was 19 years old. Sensei says that the nineteenth year in youth is the toughest challenge. Sensei had done a few million Daimoku to understand his mission and purpose in this practice. I was not doing enough Daimoku and this problem was going to help me expand my life in order for me to become a youth of Sensei’s expectations.

2. The Student Division 50th anniversary is in June, 2007. This was an opportunity given by the Gohonzon to me to challenge my weaknesses and negativity and emerge 100% victorious.

3. I am now practicing for more than a decade and this problem was a test by the Gohonzon to refresh my practice and emerge as a Soka youth with a renewed sense of purpose and focus.

I determined that it is important to live by the Soka values and as a true disciple of Sensei wherever I am. I decided to live by Soka values even if I could not return to Soka University of America. I was truly happy for all my friends in Soka University of America and cherished their friendship and support. I thanked the Gohonzon for this problem in my life that gave me as gift, people who strongly supported and cherished me. I went to sleep with this clarity in my heart. Throughout the night my mother chanted for me with pride in my decision.

On the 6th morning there was a call from Soka University of America. The academics committee had reviewed my case at a professor’s call. She had confidence in me and they decided to give me a chance to prove myself. She was truly a shoten zenjin and I was amazed at this complete turn around of events. I was overjoyed and calm.

This was truly a reflection of my inner transformation.

I take this opportunity to thank my parents, family members and friends who stood by and trusted in me. I am grateful to the leaders who helped strengthen my faith and connected me to Sensei. Thanks to my faith mother who chanted 5 hours for me everyday and my faith brother who helped me to expand my inner life with abundant Daimoku.

I am happy to report that I joined Soka University of America on the 8th of September. Some of the amazing benefits which I received were getting an incredibly cheap ticket, even cheaper than what I had initially bought for. Also, after getting back on Campus, I was able to get back all my classes I wanted which had been dropped from my schedule due to the dismissal decision.

I have no words to thank Sensei and the Gohonzon.

Today I determine to practice till the last moment of my life walking the path of mentor and disciple with Ikeda Sensei. I also determine to live by the Soka values throughout my life.

Thank You very much…

Gal-friends!

It has been ages since I last went out with a group of gals. Ever since I started dating which was around 2 years ago, I social life has shrink to the size of a small peanut to say the least! It's not that I dislike going out with gals or that I dun have any galfriends, but somehow galfriends outing are non-existent nowadays.

Maybe it's because my 2 best friends from high school are having their own individual lives now. One is in Australia studying architecture and the other one is still in Malaysia but she's literally a super gal, busy with her college stuff, peace activities and stuff lidat! So I guess 3 of us have slowly grown apart! I find it terribly sad though sometimes... we were so close when we were in high school, the gal from Aus would stay over in my house and we would stay up till 4-5am juz yakking away! There was nothing we could not share with each other. But now... I rarely chat with her even with all these technologies!!! It's sad! And truth be told, though I find it a waste to let a friendship like this go to waste, I dun really want things to change either. We have grown to be 2 different individuals.

The super gal, Liz however has always been perfect in every way. She brilliant in her studies, active in multiple activities ranging from raising awareness of HIV to youth, attending a international youth camp in Korea, to organizing events for her United Nations Club in her college. Needless to say, her life is super pack and well sometimes I do feel a bit intimidated by her. =( But I miss her though, sometimes. I do wanna know everything that is going on in her life but I'm afraid we have pass that stage where we can share our innermost thoughts as easily as we used too... We are so close yet so far! Argh...

Yesterday was different though. I had this friend, Kat, she juz came back for holidays from India. Interesting right? She's studying dentistry in Maniple. So me, Kat, Liz and another galfriend from high school, went to 1U (a shopping complex) together. It was quite fun actually to finally sit down with a bunch of gals chit chatting about girly stuff and laughing non-stop over silly jokes! Gal friends are definitely important in one's life! I miss those shopping sprees together, asking each other's opinion whether this top is nicer or the other top from the other shop is nicer. And going back and forth because we juz can't make up out minds! Giggling over silly stuff like boys! it sure beats going shopping with the boy that is forever complaining that his legs are tired and shows his displeasure when you wanna return to the shop you juz left because you wanna see the skirt again! I miss those days.

Yesterday was one of those days. Though it did not include any shopping but juz sitting together chatting was definitely the highlight of my day! =)

Lazing around..

Sorry for not blogging for so many days... After my SAT all I knew was to go out and have fun! Haha... been watching movies, going out and savoring delicious Malaysian food around PeeJay! Wahaha... well... I HAVE been stuck in my house for god knows how long! Haha... n well... adding to the fact my boyfriend is also back! So now I have a driver to drive me around! =) hope he doesn't read this! Hehe...

I feel a bit weird though... nothing else to worry about or do... I mean concerning studies... all this holiday has definitely made my brain weak and lazy! So... I think I’m gonna go for some classes... maybe Japanese class or something. Since I took Japanese class for 2 months in Uni... I should continue right? Anyone know of any good place for classes? I know there's one in Chow Yang... but it's RM230 for 3 months! (For those non-Malaysian, US 3.8 dollars is RM1!) Is it expensive? 2 hours per week! Hmm... Dunno how am I gonna persuade my parents. I mean staying at home bumming is already wasting money... wat more going out there n spent SOMEMore Money!!! Sigh... =)

There's another class I feel like going too... It may sound like a shock to u guys though... prepare k? HAha... I wanna take up belly dancing classes! HAha... sounds weird right? I know there's a lot of misconception regarding belly dancing... it being an erotic dance and all that... but it is actually a very cultural dance, first of all belly dancing was used for celebration in Egypt long time ago and it was danced by both men and women. Furthermore, women did belly dancing after child birth too... dun ask me why though... =) For health purposes, it's good for building muscles around your abdomen and increasing flexibility! And most important it's FUN!!! But it's expensive though... RM 120 (US 30) for one month! One hour per week! What dya think?

Well... according to Shoshana, she said she hates pedicures and manicures! I wonder y? I absolutely love them! HAha... just sitting there reading a magazine and soaking your legs in luke warm water, after that letting our precious feet be massage, clean.. Making it look super pretty!!! Isn’t tat nice? I know my mum hates it though! She hates other ppl touching her legs! I once gave her a pedicure voucher for her birthday and well... she didn't like my pressie! But we went anyway... both mother and daughter... but she was complaining the whole way... least to say I dun think I’ll be bringing her to a pedicurist anytime soon! She liked the effect though... her toes being colorful! Made my daddy laugh! Hahah.

Well... coz it's expensive... around RM 50 (around US 12) if you want flowers on your big toes which cost RM 5 bucks each! Normally it would cost around RM 40 only without any designs but wat's the point? I like the flowers! Wahaha... so I can only manage to go for pedicure maybe 3 times a year! HAha... tat's the amount i have been to the whole of my life! =)

The first time I went to one was last year. When my boyfriend gave me a voucher for Christmas... Hehe... sweet right? He knew that I have never been to one before and wanted to try for one badly so he went over to the nail shop and ask for the prices and stuff! And bought me a voucher for both pedicure and manicure! Wahaha... so sweet... though I haven’t tried doing manicure yet... it's weird..!!! Don’t ya think so? But main point is I play the piano... so I have to have super short nails and it's not worth it when you colour on super short nails! Right?

So wanna see my new pedicure? Hehe... I dun really know how to take good pictures though... it sort of looks like I have half feet or something! Oh well... you get the picture! Haha...

Nice anot? =)

If you see properly, which I doubt you can, all of my toes have designs. The pedicurist, Olivia told me that since I was her new customer she would do all my toes for an extra RM 15 bucks only! As in add another RM5 for all the other toes! So my grand total was RM 53!!! Expensive right? but oh well.. hehe..

hope it last till Christmas though! Which I really doubt it will... Nevermind... I shall treat myself to another round! No worries! Wahaha...

Let the truth be known! Wahaha..

Oooh... I have been tagged again! I think I’m starting to like this business! Hehe... =) this time I was tagged by mr.merapuMan! Let's start! =)

1. 5 things I would do if I were a millionaire...

ok... first of, it is gonna be in U.S dollars or Malaysian ringgit? I think I prefer it to be U.S dollars! Better yet... in Pounds!!! $$$ wahaha...

• Go off to Paris for a SHOPING SPREE!!! Wahaha... Prada, Gucci, Channel!!! EVERyTHing!!! *smiles*
• Set up a library of my own with books from all over the world!!!
• Buy all the fancy gadget I can find! Maybe share a bit with my family! Wahaha...
• Wait a minute... shouldn't I use all these money to pay for my university tuition fees?
• Save up the rest for my old age! If I am still left with money! >.<>

2. 5 bad habits ( do I really have to spill it out to you? Embarrassing oh...)

• I tend to fart a lot. Hehe...
• I am a very spiteful person. I’m full of sarcastic remarks aim just to make ppl around me hurt! Sorry... = (
• I like to walk around in my house with a big t-shirt and no shorts! Wahaha...
• I have a hard time saying no; as a result, I always end up doing the work.
• I smile a lot... resulting in ppl taking advantage of me...

3. 5 things I hate doing.

• Not eating! =)
• Confronting ppl. It’s just too messy! But I end up keeping unhappy thoughts myself which makes me even more unhappy!
• Getting up super early in the morning! I rather sleep in! Wahaha…
• Fetching my brother to and from school. (I Dunno y... I shall try and change k?)
• Feeling like I am not leading a productive life! >.<

4. 5 things I would never do.

• Kill a person. (I hope that I won’t encounter a situation that needs me to do it... scary!)
• Sleep in a tub full of insects and bugs! Like those on Fear Factor! Crazy!
• Take drugs! Tat’s just plain stupid!
• Smoke! No!
• Jump of a building or anything that relates with committing suicide! I’m sure every problem will have its solution no matter how terrible it may seem! Just hang in there! (I hope I remember this when the time comes!)

5. 5 things I regret doing.

• Not keeping in touch with old friends like I should have.
• Leaving everything to the last minute. I could have achieved better results for stuff if I started doing earlier... boohoo...
• Bitching about ppl behind their backs! I admit... I am too sensitive!
• Not reading enough books! Like biographies and literature! But they are boring! Boohoo...
• Treating 2 of my old schoolmates terribly! I’m sorry ya... =(

6. 5 favorite toys or things.

• This is easy! FOOD!!! FOOD!!! FOOD!!!
• My clothes! Wahaha...
• My bolster. It has been with me since I was a baby!
• Myself! Hehe... You have gotta love yourself right?
• My boyfriend! =)

7. 5 people I choose to do this.

• TM lee
• TheBodyTalk
  
• Irene
• Shoshana
• Kyels

Hope you guys will enjoy being tagged! wahaha.. this is my first time tagging ppl! =)

It's all over..

Hmm... I have just finished my SAT's! After 3 months of stressing over it... forcing myself to memorize vocabulary... (More like imagining it in my mind that I’m gonna do it but never coming down to it!), trying to refresh my memory on forgotten Maths, it's finally over..! Yeah... i know i have been talking non-stop about SAT and my application process but...

Feels kinda empty now that everything is over...

Weird!

The exam was ok. I didn't have time to finish a few questions! Goodness... SAT can be so tiring! For those 'old' people, SAT's consists of 10 sections each ranging from 10 to 25 mins and you have to complete all that in one sitting! With only two 5 min breaks in btw! My neck hurt so very much in the middle of it! And the hardest part is the time limit!!! I always cannot finish wan! Sigh... Didn't get to do a few questions in some of the sections! Hopefully I didn't do too poorly! >.<>

Off it goes!

Warning: This post is long and boring! And you may not know at all wat I am blabbering about so please take off when u have the chance! Thank you. =)

P/S: Though it would be nice if you could read! ^.^

After months of sleepless nights, tossing and turning in bed, trying to come out with the best essay, squeezing my non-existent brain juice, begging everybody to proof read for me, letting my dad say it's not good enough over and over again, (until he gave up himself!) It's finally off!!!

I have officially submitted my application online!!! Oh gawd... >.< style="font-size:130%;">7 Freaking years!!!

Not that I’m complaining! Miss those carefree times!

Waiting patiently for your letter of recommendation from the kindest teacher you can find who actually remembers you a tinny whinny bit! Thanks teacher! But I need 2 recommendation letters!!! So the 2^nd wan is my school counselor which I had to smile sweetly (AGAIN) when she rattles on the difference between American schools and Malaysian schools! Wanna know the difference? Well, according to her, American schools have 1 counselor to 20 students whereas Malaysian schools as 1 counselor to the WHOLE school! So how? So she proceeds on telling me she has no idea who I am and can’t possibly lie to the uni that I’m applying! Excuse me? Did I ask you to lie? But I guess after seeing how sweet I was, she grudgingly agreed asking me to call her back the next day, and the next and the next! So I ended up calling the school everyday for the next 2 weeks because I have no idea when she will finish it!!! And... Letting her scold you for disturbing her EVERY SINGLE TIME!

But when she finally finishes it and calls you to come get it... you end up floating to school! =)

Being worried that you will not be able to get everything done before the application dateline. To send off your transcripts to an international body that charges you freaking US300 bucks (equivalent to around RM1000!) just to tell you and the uni that your STPM is 4B's and 1A. Like you didn't know that already. And getting all worried when they didn't accept your result slip! Just because it is not official! But it's real I said! Nope... they need Official Ones!!! Sent by the Ministry of Education themselves! And where was my official cert you ask? Well... our very efficient Ministry of Education takes almost a year to do our Official Certificates! Which by that time... you don't need it anymore!

If you're reading until here... I salute you! =) I’m sure you have no idea what I’m taking about!

And using RM 77 bucks to send off the Official Cert. when u finally get them! (Thank goodness for that! Wahaha...) with your own money coz your parents refuses to pay for it! Calling DHL and asking them to drive all the way to my uni and grab my parcels! I salute DHL! They're the best! Hehe... Tat was an experience all by itself!

And now that all is over, when everything is with them now... (The admission officers!) My essays, my teacher's recommendation, my evaluation report! Everything!!! All I can do now is pray hard, cross my fingers and toes and hope for the very best! It is all up to them now!!!

I'M SCARED AS HELL!!!

Oh yeah... one more thing! I still have my SAT's this Saturday and I’m still blogging! I never change!

Trick, Treat or Tag!

Oooooh... I have been tagged for the first time!!! Thanks Irene! =) HAha... this is quite fun!!! Unfortunately I have never celebrated Halloween in my entire life! Ever... Dunno y though... Malaysia just doesn't have tat kind of celebration.. Oh Yeah.. Maybe it's because we celebrate Ghost Festival... Where all the ghost come out for food... something lidat.. (that's a different story tho.. ) So... Nvm... I’ll try my best..! Heheh...

1. What's the scariest movie you have ever seen.
HAha... u asking me that? I rarely watch horror movies... if I ever do... too scared of it! I'm afraid I’ll be the one shouting the loudest and everyone will turn around and look at me! Serious! Imagine if you're the only one shouting! Besides that... I know the image or scary scene will linger on for the next few days... I'M SCARED!

The only scary show I watch was Gothika... even that my boyfriend literally had to push me into the cinema! And I got so frighten after that he never suggested bringing me to any scary movie after that... HAha... poor him... Anyway... besides being scary... this show is quite interesting really... got quite a nice story line! You'll be surprised! It gets u thinking long after the show! Quite meaningful... though I had to sleep with the lights on that night! >.<

Just looking at the picture gives me the shivers!

2. What's was your favorite costume from childhood.
Ok... I'm just gonna write wat I imagine Halloween to be! I used to quite admire ppl that celebrated it! I remember always reading story books where the children will go treat a treat or something lidat! There's plenty on TV too!!! So my favorite costume from childhood will be dressing as a witch! I always wanted to know how's it like to be a witch! With pointy hat and a broom by the side! Hehe...

Hehe.. pointy hat!!! She's a bit sexy for a witch but wahaha...

3. If you had unlimited budget, what would your Fantasy Costume be for this Halloween?
Well... em... let's see... Cinderella perhaps? Together will glass high heels, make-up by Stilla or Bobby Brown! Em.. Some thousand-over-dollar-celebrity-like gown. Hehe.. maybe I'll look abit overdress but who cares! Just as long as I'm pretty! Maybe while you're at it throw in some liposuction too.. Like wat Irene said! Haha..

Ooooh.. can i change to dress to pink? and wher's my prince charming?

4. When was the last time you went for treat or treating?
Told you I never been to one b4... won't mind trying though... sounds fun!!! =) Free sweets!

5. What's your favorite Halloween Candy?
Not really sure what candy ppl serve... should be any kind rite? Ever heard of Daim's sweet? Love them!!! =) They tend to stick to your teeth though if you eat too much! Nvm... Still love them! Hehe...

Yum.... Serious.. u should try it! =)

6, Tell us about a scary nightmare you had.
Ok... this will be quite easy. I have dreams every single night without fail! Weird me! Anyway... I greatly remember when I was young my parents brought me to eat steamboat. You know those kinds where you cook raw food in front of you with a big pot of soup? Well... I remember we had prawns tat time... really fresh prawns! They were still jumping! So I happily threw them inside the steaming soup and watch them turn colour from blue to orange almost instantaneously! HAha... Unfortunately thought, that night itself, I had a nightmare! I dreamt that I was in the middle of the ocean and surrounding me was big prawns and octopus and all other sea creatures! They were huge..! And they were all ready to eat me up! So... hahah... it was certainly quite scary though I dun understand y my parents kept laughing at me after that... =.=

7. What is your supernatural fear?
Em... I dun really understand this question. The ability to see ghost? Like The Eye (though I didn't watch that show)? Scary... *shudders just thinking about it*

I was thinking of putting some pictures but looking for scary pictures at 1.00 am is quite terrifying! =(

8. What is your creepy-crawlie fear?
Actually I’m scared of anything that crawls and have lots of feet! Including worms, centipedes, weird flying objects... Argh!!! And I was supposed to study environmental science in my ex-uni! HAha... ok... I know most of them mean no harm and I’m trying hard to not be so scared of them but...

Ah...!!!

9. Tell us about a time when you saw a ghost, or heard something go Bump in the night....
I Dun ever want to see a ghost. Thank you very much. But I do know that my mind is in super imaginative mode come middle of the night... so I actually hear lots of Bump in the night! Whether it's true or not it's a different story!

10. Would you ever stay in a real Haunted House at night?
Well... seriously it depends on wat you mean by real... you mean ppl actually seen ghost there before? Or they just imagine? And are there gonna be ppl staying there too? Maybe a butler or something? They normally have these things in big mansions!

To answer Ur question... I don't think so... Too coward.

11. Are you a traditionalist (just a face) Jack O'Lantern Carver, or do you get really creative with your pumpkins?
Never carve a pumpkin and never seen a real wan before too... God! I sound like I live in a cave!!! HAha... seriously though, I always wonder how ppl really carve pumpkins! Can it be done? It looks so nice with all the holes for the mouth and eyes... amazing! HAha...

This one looks pretty amazing... a bit scary tho..

12. How much do you decorate your home for Halloween?
Em... none... Sorry... I'll try to do that when I have my own family k? =)

13. What do you want on your tombstone?
Hmm... Weird question. Ok... em... let me think... something nice I hope...

Here in lies the prettiest, kindest, friendliest, sexiest (hopefully!), cleverest, most compassionate wife, mother, and daughter who has definitely lived life to the fullest with all her achievements! =)

aww... so sweet... hope that's true though when I really die! HAha...

Cutsie Picture..

I'm having bloggers block now... (Hey... it rhymes!) Dunno wat to write... maybe it because I have been stuck at home for the past whole week or my brain juice is just dried up from all the essay writing I’m 'trying' to do.. Yeah... I’m still onto my application essays! Darn those applications! Y muz we write essays? >.< href="http://wackocrazy.blogspot.com/"> blog! It's quite interesting really! The pictures he manages to find from the World Wide Web! HAha... I especially like this one! =)

Cute right? Poor little kid... too tired to even do his business... =)

A little Joke..

Hello guys.. just wanna share with you a little joke I stumble upon again in one of the blogs - MerapuMan! Haha... Ok.. don't think I'm a dirty old man k (or gal)? I thought d person that posted this picture was too when I first saw the picture but.. haha.. It's amazing how normal things can turned out to bite you from behind! Haha..

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A co-worker got a pen stuck inside our printer. He started to try and remove the pen, but I told him we don't have time for that now, just put a note on the printer telling folks not to use it and then report it to the Help Desk. So he grabbed a piece of paper and scrawled on it. I left before he finished the note. About 20 minutes later, one of my techs comes in laughing. Curious, I went to investigate it myself. Attached is what I found. Sometimes things don't always come out the way you want them to.

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Did it bring a smile to your face? It did to me! Haha.. Have a nice day!

Billy Mac Critique Me Blog!!!

Oh my goodness!!! I can’t believe this… Hehe... Billy Mac actually did critique my blog even though I’m sure his inbox is full of other more interesting blogs!!! I was just doing my daily checking of e-mails and lo and behold I saw Billy Mac’s e-mail to me… Billy Mac actually came and visited my blog!!! Hehe... and he even posted his comments in pink! So sweet! And special too..!! Ahahaha... *smiles*

SEE!!! Dun believe me? Go check it out for yourself? Wahaha...

CRITIQUE MY BLOG!!!

This is what he said...

I was a bit afraid he was gonna say my blog was too messy, all over the place or something but... though he always manage to say something good about everybody’s blog but ahah… wat the heck! wahahaha... he said my blog was nice!!!

See!

Here is a blog by Princess Shin of Malaysia who writes a charming blog about regular 19 year old stuff. I am critiquing in Pink because that is what Shin has done on her blog out of respect for Breast cancer awareness Month and I commend her for doing so. The blog is only a few months old but Shin posts on a pretty regular basis and as I said it's a charming blog. My only suggestion would be to add a site meter to see how many visitors you are getting on your blog. Well done! Keep up the good work.

Thank you Billy Mac! =) I don’t think I can sleep tonight!

Sorry for making such a big deal… Haha… *feels a bit embarrassed (a bit only la…)*

Pink! Pink! Pink!

It's d month of October and everywhere you go... there's a Breast Awareness Campaign going on... Even the blogosphere has contradicted the virus too... =) Hopefully by doing all these... more and more women would go for check-ups and prevent it before it's too late.. Better late than never… Imagine how much you can actually save if there’s early detection!

Here... in the blogging community, there's this thing which all blogs redecorate and be pink in colour... well... since I already love pink... it'll not be much difference for me... but juz wanna share with u guys!!! =) for more information check out Pink October! There’s buttons too... like the one below... quite cool right? Go decorate your blog with pinkish stuff too... guys included... yup! *wink*

I found out that I’m really terrible in designing template and stuff... ok... I didn't found out... I knew it all along... But goodness... takes a look out there! There's so many beautiful designs out there... There's even a blog teaching us not very clever people how to design your blog pink! Even for the macho men out there... There's also this Design Meltdown website that gives you idea on wat you can actually do with ur website... some are really beautiful... but em... wat's d point if I dun know how to translate the beautiful designs into HTML language? >.<>

Though breast cancer seems pretty far off for me but I read that young women nowadays do get breast cancer too... it's getting more and more common... really scary if you ask me.. Unfortunately though... I have always asked my mum to go for a mammogram check up, she always refuses... I can see why though, d thought of some metal thing pressing against your breast is quite terrifying but for the reward of actually saving my life, I would do it any day! My mum is one stubborn woman! She even said to me,

'wat for I go for a check up? So wat if I know? Sometimes ignorance is bliss!'

Not when you can save your life MUM..!!! Argh! So... for those mothers out there... go listen to your daughter when she asks you to go for a check up... or if she doesn't ask, go anyway! You want to be there for a marriage and subsequently d birth of your grandchild right? So GO!!!

Here are a few breast cancer myths…

1. Breast cancer does not affect young women

Unfortunately, it’s so not true... sigh... women as young as below 30 have been known to be diagnosed with cancer.

2. The first sign of breast cancer is always a lump

There is more than one kind of breast cancer. Inflammatory Breast Cancer is an advanced and rare form of breast cancer that is not easily detected by conventional method. Typical symptoms include sudden swelling, itching, a pinkish rash and breast pain.

3. Only women are at risk.

Sorry guys… you are at risk too... = (

4. Your highest risk factor is your family history

80% to 85% of new patients with breast cancer don’t have a family member with breast cancer. Go figure!

5. Some foods may prevent cancer.

There is no scientific evidence in this. Unfortunately. However, eating d wrong type of food does increase your risk, particularly, calories. Oh dear, I’m dead…

6. It will always be a killer.

Hmm… I like this. The death rate is falling. Because of more effective treatment as more cases are detected earlier! What are u waiting for?

7. Surgery is the only option.

There are more than 20 types of cancer and its treatment varies. Early detection also reduces the need for surgery!

8. You can examine yourself anytime.

You can’t do it the week before or during your period, when they may feel more tender and lumpy. Do it once a month, a week after your period.

9. Exercise cannot prevent it.

Uh-oh... another reason for me to exercise! Hehe... on a more serious note though... it prevents by as much as 40 percent!!!

10. Pregnancy protects you.

A bit of truth in it IF you had your first child in your 20s. However, having ur first child after the age of 35 or not having children at all will slightly increase the chances. Oh yea, breast feeding will lower the chances!

11. Cancer of the breast is painful.

95 % are mostly painless. It does... but usually only at a very advanced stage, or after it has spread! So GO CHECK!

12. A woman will lose her breast is she's diagnosed with breast cancer.

The current treatment worldwide for early breast cancer is not to have a mastectomy, but to have the lump completely removed and to have the whole breast irradiated to ‘clear’ it of cancerous cells! So do go check k?

*Sources taken from October Issue of Malaysian Version of Cleo Magazine*

Hope you guys had a nice read! Better late than never! Take care!

Stop those burning!!!

Ok... I know there's a lot of Malaysians blogging about the Haze nowadays... but I can't help it either... it smells so terrible... Why must we put up with this every year??? Argh... can't they do something about it? It's not only polluting the environment but those poor trees... burnt just like that...

I remember there was once, my lecturer post us a question,

'Is the air we breathe free?'

Obviously all of us answered yes...

Then our lecturer gave an opinion which to me rings very true... He said what if someone charge us for the air we breathe? For instance wat if our neighboring country asks Malaysia to pay them a sum of money to stop their burning forest? And if we don't pay up, they won't stop the burning...

Hmm… How true... We were all quiet for a moment thinking oh my god... what if that really happen? Imagine if ppl were 'evil' enough to actually do such a thing?

Is the air we breathe a privilege or is it something that is naturally ours? Why are we taking for granted things that are naturally given to us? We won’t fully appreciate it until it's gone right? Isn't that human nature? Now that Malaysians are suffering because of the haze, yearning so much to breathe in fresh air again, can we ask ourselves

'When we had fresh air to breathe, did we fully appreciate it?'

Or did we just take it for granted? Did we get up early in the morning and smell the morning breeze?

Or did we just got into the car, and drove to office or uni without caring if we polluted the environment?

Now that our fresh air is temporarily taken away from us, let us take a moment and promise ourselves that when all this is over, we will wake up early and take in the deep fresh morning air.

And just maybe I’ll go for a jog as well... though I sincerely doubt it... =)

Dear diary...

My boyfriend just went and sleep so i juz missed my chance of hearing and speaking to him.. all coz of my stupid 'Charmed'.. I'm a selfish gal... I miss him.. >.<

Do you ever think when you wish upon something hard enough it will come true? Wat if you fail and everyone has high expectations of you..?

Ok.. cancel that thought! Think happy thoughts..

Think happy thoughts!!!

Think happy thoughts!!

=|

I din want it to end this way..

Sigh... I have officially made up my mind to quit my university. But I certainly din want it to end this way. I know I have got a responsibility in doing my part in watever presentation there was but now... >.<

Argh!

I admit it's my fault for not going back to the university for the past 2 weeks but is it my fault when I didn't know I was supposed to do everything? Goodness!!! You guys just take it for granted that because my English is a bit better than the rest of the group members it's my responsibility to COMPLETE the whole &%$#%%# thing for you guys? EXCUSE ME??? So now it's my fault for not being there when I suddenly juz realize that the presentation is next week??? For god's sake, I was not there remember? How am I supposed to know?

ARGH!!!

*smashes computer now*

sorry Mr. Computer... you are a strong wan I know!

Just because I’m all nice and soft spoken DOES NOT give you the right to push everything to me!!! And I was actually looking forward to giving the presentation with you guys! Even though there was nothing in it for me!!! I was going to leave anyway... But I wanted to leave in a nice way.. but now..

ARGH!!! >.<

All said and done though... I hope they do a good job! I still had my share in doing it anyway... For most part!

-A little small 'introduction'-

Hello again.. i was just thinking since i'm startin a blog now.. i should also put in a little introduction.. just in case when i get really famous (yeah right.. go sleep!) ppl would know a little bit about me..

Ok.. let's see.. em.. judging from the pink background.. well.. obviously i'm d ever confusing-mysterious-prone to pms-shopoholic-fickle minded female species. proud to be one by the way just em.. a little scared to give birth to a baby in the future.. many years to come hopefully.. but tat's another story altogether..

I was born on 1st of March 1987.. and if your maths is brilliant.. you can make a guess that yeah.. i'm 19 this year.. 2006.. am very happy to be born on the first day of a month!!! haha.. like the number 1! feel free to drop any gifts on my birthday.. hehe... no? guess not.. =(

I'm studyin in a local public university now.. somewhere in Selangor. Why IPTA (institute pengajian tinggi awam for those 'iliterate' malaysians) you ask.. well.. i didn't want to study there at first.. just wanted to try try only.. mana tau ended up here.. in my 1st year now.. studyin environmental science (wat's tat? study environment la..wat else?).. mayb i can save the world someday..

But currently i'm tryin to apply to an American Uni.. not gonna tell to much coz you know la.. i abit supertitious wan.. hehe.. heard about the thing when you tell people your wish after you blow your candles it wont come true.. well.. crossing my fingers.. toes.. and watever more that is crossable.. hope i get accepted.. will know on the 1st of Dec 2006.

That's why i'm abit of a dilemma now.. should i continue where i'm studying now or just quit since i'm gonna leave? sigh.. this thing has been going thru my head 100000000 times..

TO quit or not to quit.. tat is the question..

wat if i dun get..? then i got no uni to study anymore

but i cannot have doubts.. =( ---------- =) yeah!!!

anyway.. continue with my introduction..

I'm from PJ, Selangor.. i live with my family.. one lil brother.. 2 'normal' parents.. 1 mum and 1 dad i mean.. not 2 mums and 2 dads..  love them tho just like any normal family i quarel with my mum especially.. A LOT!!! currently for watever unknown reason.. she has been ignoring me the whole day..

I like shopping!!! i mean lu..r..ve!!! a lot.. really A lot!!! i know midvalley.. one utama at the back of my hand!!! my friends use to call midvalley my 2nd home coz i go there every single weekend!!! due to the fact my dad thinks tat is the only place he can bring to make his family bond! haha.. i dun mind it at all since it's just an opportunity to use daddy's money..

Yeah.. i'm a daddy's gal.. =)

Unfortunately now.. i'm staying in my hostel.. only come back during the weekends.. therefore i dun get to shop as much.. &  i have a boyfriend, Cody of 2 and a half years.. met in high school but now in separate unis.. see each other only during the weekends.. we used to see each other every single day.. later if all goes well.. i may only see him after 4 years (how ah?).. so.. crossing my arms and legs again.. i love watching the movies too.. so watch out for upcoming blogs on movies.. love eating too.. i dun eat to live but i live to eat.. haha.. i eat like 6 meals a day.. forever hungry wan.. especially now tat i'm living in the hostel (which serves malay food everywhere.. it isnt tat bad.. but when you're force to eat the same old thing every meal.. sigh..) it's even worst... when i get back during the weekends.. it's just food.. food... and more food!! I love reading too.. if i have the time.. my SAT (an exam to get into the american uni) is coming.. oct 14th.. so i'm trying very hard to study but failing miserably.. which brings me to another point.. I AM A PROCRASTINATOR! a very good wan.. i dun think there's another person tat puts off doing things as worst as me.. i only work under stress.. if the thing is needed in 2 months.. i will only start doin it a few hours before tat 2 months dateline! absolutely terrible.. but miraculously.. things always seem to get done perfectly even with the time constrain! haha.. I'm never puntual too.. =( always late for stuff.. when the thing is suppose to start at 10.. i'll leave my house at 10:10.. and normally reach the destination at 10:30.. if i'm lucky.. but because of malaysia's culture.. i'm usually the 1st one there at 10:30.. I dun think this will be a very good resume.. =| I'm a self-confessed shopaholic too.. products ranging from clothes (favourites include Forever 21, MNG, plastic, Topshop.. just to name a few).. to CDs.. to turtles (soft toys la.. my current craze.. they're super cute!).. to magazines (favourites include Cleo, Men's Health *wink* watcha thinking? u read before ah?).. and finally when i have the extra cash..which is not really possible.. books.. hehe.. or else go library lo.. These are my favourites.. got somemore wan.. but camera too hungry di.. fainted*
 
These are super cute.. if you look carefully.. the mummy's shell has a zip.. and when u unzip it.. she will suddenly 'give birth' to 2 cute lil baby turtles.. simply adorable!




Remember this? he was from Finding Nemo..got it from Sidney, Australia..not cheap.. think about RM20 bucks for this small lil key-chain.. which i dun even use coz scared it'll be black! =( dun think he has a name tho..dun think any of them hav a name.. can u remember? the one tat was too lazy to swim and had to 'tumpang'(hitch a ride) thru the Australian current or something.. oh god.. he's super cute too.. look at his big giant eyes.. kinda like mine.. hehe.. good thing or bad thing?




This is a real one though.. i think it's d olive turtle or green turtle.. i just finish my exam.. pardon me for my forgetfullness... FYI.. there's endangered.. so no eating of turtle's eggs k people!!! shall educate you guys on turtles some day.. =)

So.. like i sed.. i'm just a typical malaysian gurl..

Ciaoz..