Communication..

Communication.. How it has change over the years..

Long long time ago.. kings, knights and princesses communicate with each other by either sending a rider thru deserts or across continents or by pigeons.. You tie the respective note on the bird's feet and pray to god that he knows the particular destination. Though I always wonder how the bird knew who he's master's friend was... i mean the master may have plenty of friends.. What if the little birdie sent to the wrong mistress or something?

Anyway... things have slowly evolved... during my parent's time... it was writing romantic letters... my dad was in London doing his degree and in that 3 years they were apart.. They communicated thru romantic letters which up till this day... my mum still keeps it hidden somewhere in the house.

My point is... snail mail is slowly becoming obsolete... e-mail is gradually overtaking the traditional way of conveying your deepest thoughts on a piece of paper... putting in into an envelope... sealing it with a kiss... walking to the post office and finally putting it into the mail box. And not forgetting praying that it will reach the recipient safely withot it being lost in the mail. I'm not complaining that technology now has saved us a lot of time and energy. Not to mention the immediate response you'll get in receiving or sending the mail. But don't ya think that e-mailing lack personality? Imagine you're terribly missing someone and while you're writing the love letter... big drops of tears slide down your cheek and onto the paper at the same time smudging all your handwriting. With this... the recipient will definitely notice the smudges and know that the writer was crying while she/he wrote this. (Guys can cry too)

e-mail can't do this.

I'm not complaining though... I just receive a totally romantic e-mail today... *smiles* by my beloved boyfriend... not gonna tell you the details... =) but i was all smiley after i read it... but you know wat... i'm worried that someday... when the internet or my e-mail suddenly closes down.. Gone is all my love e-mails! With letter you can actually keep it till the day you die! Literally! (note to bf: not complaining though.. don't stop k?)

Anyway... as i was saying... communication is really essential to a relationship... telling each other ur daily happenings or ur frustrations and dreams... sharing with each other your thoughts and worries.. even if you are not together always. Because only with communication can we keep the relationship alive. Without proper communication, your partner can be just a passer-by or some stranger across the street! What makes a relationship strive is when you can practically share all your troubles to each other.. not necessarily solving each other's problem but just being there to lend a ear and giving love and support to each other is important enough..

I'm glad that my boyfriend is someone that I can confide in and share my dreams and troubles with.

On another note... how you communicate is also very important. How you present your thoughts and feelings to the audience... are you able to fully convey your most essential thoughts to your readers? Catching their full attention? Making them so engrossed into your story that they can feel how it is like to be you? Are we able to do that? Do we have the ability to do that? What is the right choice of words? Do we do it in a humorous way or in a serious tone? Especially in writing. it's definately not easy.

Why did I bring this up? Well... i have got 2 essays that i need to write and pass up by end of this week. Fyi it's for my application to the university! I have written these essays long time ago but now.. I sort of feel that I have to re-write everything again. I just gave my father to read it and he said my essay lack personality. (yeah.. darling.. ur right!) It is just informative! I wasn't able to fully convey my true inner thoughts into it!

just FYI again, the 2 essays are titled 'a defining moment' and 'a disappointment or a setback'

He also said you couldn't feel anything after reading the 2 essays. And I must do something about it. But how do you put feelings into an essay that cannot exceed 300 words? I mean my this blog alone is like 100000 words! ok.. I know it's not true but you know what I mean!

How am I gonna convey my feelings properly when I have to worry about my grammar, my punctuation, my 'perfect' manglish (Malaysian English), my simple babyish choice of words and most importantly not to be too long winded..! like now..! sigh.. >.<>

Dear admission officer,

I'm tired of thinking and stressing on how to properly convey my inner personality into my essay. Attached here in my blog's address. Please feel free to log onto my blog and read my entrees to get more information on how I live my life. If time is permissible, you may even leave a comment or two. I do hope you will be a frequent reader too. Thank you and have a nice day.

Yours truly,
Princess Shin

now that would be a blast don't ya think?

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I can't sleep!

Argh!!! it's close to 3 am on a friday night and all i'm doin is reading random blogs.. no.. correction.. more like reading Kenny Sia's blog! For those not very clever people out there.. Kenny is Malaysia's most Famous Blogger.. in my opinion that is..He's blog is totally addictive! Pity he's in New Zealand now so dun really hav any new updates! Been busy reading his past archives though.. some are really hilarious.. made my boyfriend and me laughed till our stomach ache!

That's what i liked bout his blog though.. i mean other than the millions of readers out there.. it's not only funny.. it's quite touching too.. sometimes.. occasionally he puts in serious stuff and u get to see his personal struggles other than his wacky 'condom' reviews! It's a shame though.. some of his blogs are password protected.. though he did mention that people can actually e-mail him.. but sorta 'mo yi xi' (em..embarrased?) to do that.. get what i mean? him being all famous and celebrity like and all that..

maybe when i get all famous myself then i'll do it.. which in other words means never.. >.< >.<

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He's definately sleeping now so i dun think i can call him.. correction.. piggy as he is.. he's DEFINATELY sleeping now.. and it's so expensive calling him.. my handphone bill is now over RM 300!!! and unfortunately for me.. the bill is sent to my mum so.. sigh..

'Why your bill so expensive wan? Do u know mine is only RM30?'

Mum.. u got no life mah.. futhermore daddy lives with you..

though i can hear people saying..

'lucky u.. at least your parents pay for ur bill!!! ever heard of prepaid?'

i guess i should count my blessings then.

I miss him so much..
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There's so many things going in my mind now.. i'm so frustrated and confused!

Should i continue with my uni? as u guys all know.. (my imaginary readers out there.. somewhere) i'm in a transition state now.. i'm studying in an IPTA but am preparing to go into another uni... but can i get into that uni or not?

Now that i have officially decided to quit my corrent uni.. i sorta feel..

'am i doin the right thing?'

I'm so confused! this has been goin over my poor little mind for the past 4 months!!! every single day!!! not helping with the situation is my lovely parents.. my mum saying to me

'why do u have to go to that war-torn country..' that meaning US.. dun ask me.. i dun understand either..

'u sure u gonna get ah?'

and my super supportive dad saying

'girl.. you think ur parents print money ah?'

sigh.. i'm really frustrated.. adding to the fact is i just went into one of my coursemates friendster site and she posted her faculty night pictures (something like a prom night).. which i didnt attend coz i didn't have the 'mood' to..

now i feel left out..

and did i mention my family may all shift to Vietnam?

actually it's quite confirm as my family is planning to fly over to Vietnam next week for my brother to take some sorta 'entrance' exam for his so called international school..

what am i gonna do?

think i'm gonna sleep on it.. -.-

Unofficial Guide To College Admissions

I'm planning to apply for a university in the States.. the closing date is on Oct 12 2006. and right now i have already sent in my teacher's recommendation and national exam results. Wat is left is my essay and my extra curricular activities list which i'm goin to sent online!

I'm terrified!!!

This is the only uni which i am applying and i have put in all my hope into getting in.

I dun even wanna ask myself the dreadful 'wat if' question.

So i have been reading a few college admissions book to sort of get some advice on my application. Like this wan below.

Unfortunately.. the more i read.. the more dejected i become.. inside.. it says that early action are for those people that have really really good results as the admission requirements are higher than the regular admissions..

I know that.. but reading in on print is a different story.. my results arent excellent but i am determine to apply for the early action as i want to know the results as soon as possible.

This is what the website of the uni i'm applying states..

Applications from students who are not admitted during the Early Action will automatically be rolled into the Regular Admission period for further admission consideration; there is therefore no need to submit another application or fee. However, applicants that are denied admission through the Early Action period are not permitted to reapply for the Regular Admission period.

what exactly do they mean by that? what do u mean by not admitted? what is the difference? then does that are denied admissions? why were they denied? was it because they were not good enuf? then why were they not rolled into the Regular Admission? sigh.. i'm scared and confused now..

And my essay.. i have already finish writing both my essays and actually feel quite proud about it.. but there the book states the Do's and Dont's of writing an essay..

1. Do not start your essay with proverb. It's used too many times..

Guilty as charged.. >.<

2. Use simple and easy to understand words..

Then how are they going to know your vocabulary? can someone help me here?

So i gave up and stopped reading anymore of these 'saddening' stuff and venture on to more interesting stuff..

like what to bring to your university..

Talk about having confidence!!! =)

I didn't know there was so many things to bring.. microwave la.. mini fridge.. iron..

I was thinking of just bringin my clothes.. toothbrush.. and my handphone!!!

who would have guess!

Anyway.. there was a few books that they recommend to be a must have...

Give me your ideas about them..

Like this one over here.. i read from the reviews it said it's a very good book.. but i dun think they have it in the bookstores now.. i think it's pretty old..but i dun really trust buying stuff from the internet.. watdya think?

Is the internet trustable?

this is another one.

anyone have this book?

Why Chicago? Reminds me of the show.. with Nicole Kidman.. 'Diamonds are a girl's best friend..'

Weird..

This seems to be the best dictionary ever..


And best thesaurus..
and another one..

MLA Handbook for Writers of Research Papers, Theses and Disertations..

But they dun seem to have any pictures for this.

Anyway.. for those that are preparing to go to any universities.. well these are the books they recommend and claimed that every student should have one..

I think i'm gonna get one too.. just as long as my parents are willing to buy.. =)

Girl Intuition..

Girl's intuition.. are they justified? Can they be trusted? or are we just mainly known as overeacting? We female species are certainly well-known as that..

Well.. i brought this up coz as you all know.. my boyfriend is studying in a different university. About 2 hours drive from where we both stay. So this makes me see him only once every week.. tat is only during the weekends when he sits the bus home..

so technically wat we are now having can be called a long distance relationship.

so.. as a woman species myself... i tend to overeact a tinny little bit when it comes to him having any 'gal' friends.. not new girlfriend mind you thank you very much..

therefore. whenever he tells me about any of his 'girl' friends.. my mind would be terribly alert and would start thinking.. or even asking.

'is she pretty?'

'does she have boyfriend?'

which my then perfectly understandable boyfriend would then answer.. 'No darling.. she's fat and ugly..'

'but no boyfriend'

right.. >.< style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0); font-weight: bold;">MY darling to go back during the weekends and sits in a different table when me and MY boyfriend came to the library..

I may be overeacting.. maybe.. but sorry to say..

my claws are now officially out..

beware!!!

not that i can do anything once i'm gone.. =(

Help!!!

I have got a reader! Hip Hip Hurray!

Yahoo..!!! Somebody actually reads my post!!! Hurray!!! i have 1 comment today!!! haha..

Joy to the world.. Congratulations.. and Celebrations!!! champagne anyone?

ok.. cool down shin.. no biggie.. everyone has readers.. other blogs have like over a thousand a day.. calm down!!!

Yahoo!!! i have a reader!!! *all smiles*

I would like to thank my parents for their support.. my boyfriend.. though he still hasn't found my blog yet.. and my friends.. last but not least.. but most importantly.. my readers.. or reader.. anything..!!! thank you thank you..

*bows to the audience*

sigh.. i'm happy now.. someone actually reads my blog.. *continues to smile to the computer*

thank you artemis..

and i posted a comment on one of the blogs.. one of the links over there.. on your right.. and she replied me!!! *smiles again* bloggers are nice people! Thank you irene!

I'm on the 'A world of Bloggers' too.. it's supposed to be a blog specially to connect bloggers from all over the world.. cool rite? didn't know he would add me so fast.. *smiles again*

ok.. i know i'm overeacting.. people must think i'm crazy or plain childish.. a bit pai seh too(shy and embarassed) but..

SOMEBODY ACTUALLY READS MY BLOG!!!

though i think i have officially scared off everyone in this blogospere of ever leaving a comment let alone touch my blog again.. =(

to be loved is better to not experience love at all.. or something lidat..

you get wat i mean.. =)

-Tribute to Miss Proton-

She was a 1989 first batch Proton Saga.. my parents first car.. my very first car too..

She used to fetch me around everywhere.. it was my family's only car...

I used to remember my dad fetching me to my kindergargen every single morning when i was like 5 or 6. Tat time i was still in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. Yeah.. i am a Sabahan. Long time ago.. long story.. will talk about that some other time. I was from Chung Hwa Kindergarden. Wonder if there's anyone from there? in that 15 mins of car ride with my dad.. we would have small little kiddy chats along the way which of coz i cannot remember anything now.. unfortunately.. but i do remember something very well.. i have this favourite cassette of mine which daddy knew of coz but didnt really like. So right after i get into the car.. i would scold my dad and ask him

'why u never put on my favourite cassette oh.. bad daddy'

Then i would proceed to put it on myself and enjoy it.

For your information.. the cassette was Richard Clayderman. I absolutely love him. At tat tender age of 5 or 6.. i have no idea why i liked him but i just did. My favourites were 'hello', 'memory' and etc..

Weird right?

Other times when he picked me up after my school.. i would entertained him with the songs i learned from my kindergarden. I remember very clearly tat right after the last school bell rang, all of us would have to stand up.. greet the teacher goodbye and sing the 'carrying bag' song.. i don't know whether anyone of you know this song.

'bei zhe shu bao fang xue liao' (literal translation means carry bag finish school already)

I said literal translation!

And wonderful as my daddy is.. he later proceed to memorize the song and sing along together with me. And in years to come.. even used this to tease me!

But after that my dad got promoted and he was given a company car. It was a four wheel drive. For KL-ians that have never seen a four wheel drive before well.. i don't have a picture with me so.. needless to say.. Miss Proton was then neglected as no one really wanted to drive her anymore.

But then my daddy changed job and we moved to KL after that. tat was in year 1998. Thankfully Miss Proton came along although it cost us RM 1000 to bring her over the ocean. It was definately worth it though..

It was our main transportation for the next 3 years until my parents bought a new car.. A Nissan Cefiro.. which my daddy proudly calls 'Sei fei lou'. It was definately a vast improvement compared to the then ageing Miss Proton. There was many a times where i would rather sit 'sei fei lou' then Miss Proton.


Imagine this in gold and a bit older without the nice black background.. Still not bad right?

I'm sorry Miss Proton.

Then i turned 17.. and for very obvious reasons, my parents absolutely phobited me to drive 'sei fei lou'.. therefore i was forced to drive Miss Proton.


And it was also then tat i developed my feelings towards it.

It took me everywhere..

To school.. to the library.. to my boyfriend's house.. to pak toh.. to 'yam cha' with my gal-friends..

Everywhere..

And it was a manual car too.. so this made me an envy to all my other friends as most of them, after they got their driving license.. never ever touched a manual car after that. So naturally i was always getting responses like

'wah.. u can drive manual car ah? geng woh..'


something lidat..

I decorated with girly stuff all over it too.. =)



But now tat it's over 17 years of age.. my parents have decided to sell it.. much to my objection!!! I kept on arguing tat it was in perfect condition.. just like a brand new car.. but as usual.. overprotective dad argued tat it was too old and needed to be get rid of as soon as possible.. coz it may 'burst' anytime on the road!!! ARGH!!!

and for a mere RM 3500!! it's such a bargain!!! it's still brand new!!! clean and shining!!!

Though there are somethings that gives away how old she actually is..

See that M&M.. my mum put that sticker up one fine day 10 years ago.. now.. you can't tear it off at all.. it has melted into the window.. See me in the background? hehe..

I got back from uni one fine day.. and my Miss Proton was.. *gone*

I miss my car.. *sob*


To the new owner..

MAKE SURE YOU TAKE CARE OF MY CAR!!! OR ELSE..

I WILL HAUNT YOU IN YOUR DREAMS!!!

-Childcare-

Ok.. my biological clock isn't ticking here if tat's wat you're asking.. i'm only 19 years old for crying out loud.. =) hehe.. but yeah.. i have always had an interest with little kids.. preferably before they turn 6 coz tat's the time they slowly turn into monsters!!! No more those cute chubby hands and they are officially 'uncarrieble' now.. meaning they are too heavy to be carried anymore... sad.. sad..

I remember when i was small.. i used to follow my parents when they visited their friends.. and their friends would have little adorable toddlers tat will either be sitting on the floor or playing in their baby cot. While my parents would be busy catching up with their friends.. i would slowly but surely go over to the toddler and try and to get him/her to play with me. Let me tell you it's not an easy task.. these babies were certainly very street-wise!

'NO STRANGERS CAN TOUCH ME!!' motto!

They would crawl or look away whenever i try and baby talk with them. and when i'm really unlucky.. will give a loud cry and i'm done! The protective parents would then look my away wondering wat awful thing i had done to their precious little jewels..

so poor me would have to patiently coax them into slowly trusting me.. and most of the time i do succeed.. after 1 or 2 hours and by that time.. it's time for me to go home.. >.<

so yeah.. so like i said.. i love kids.. maybe i would make a career out of it.. or maybe not.. who knows..

The Devil Wears Jimmy Choo!!!

haha.. this is wat u called 'san si hang'.. just started my blog today and wrote 3 entries plus this wan!!! unfortunately this is only temporary as i'll be goin back to my uni soon and i wont have any computer with me.. unless i am willing to fork out 2 bucks and hour to write my blog at the cyber cafe which i think it's a rather a waste of money.. but we shall see..

anyway.. as i was saying me and my boyfriend went and watch 'Devil wears Prada' just now at 1U.. yeah it's not officially out yet but dunno y they had screenings.. wanted to watch 'The Banquet' which to my boyfriend it is called 'The Blanket'.. dunno why he doesn't like it.. >.< st="on">New York and venture into the fashion world. But as usual.. (spoilers ahead.. abit only.. wont spoil alot) the lead actress had to make a choice. High fashion designer clothes and career or a humble loving boyfriend tat is a waiter?

Life's like tat.. you have got to choose.. it's either a high flying career or be a stay home mum.. why muz we need to choose? can't we have everything? Being a woman is indeed not easy. We wanna achieve lots of things.. be a CEO in the company.. save the poor and the sick.. wear nice expensive Jimmy CHoo's shoes while saving the world (wonder how u'll gonna do tat).. and at the same time teach your kids homework.. be there for their recitals and in the night still hav the energy to make love with your hubby..

we woman certainly dont get it easy. But there's where all the satisfaction lies right? at the end of the day.. when we see all the happy faces around.. we know that we have lead a truly fufilling life.

Tat's why Daisaku Ikeda, the SGI president always stresses on how important a role of a woman is in the family. Coz only she can brighten up the whole family. We are indeed very important!!!

Goin back to the story. Em.. where was i? Anyway.. long story short.. it's a very interesting story especially for those branded suckers out there.. the transformation tat Anna Hathaway experience was quite amazing.. all though i have no idea why she is always needing to go for transformation. Princess Diaries also lidat. But the fact is tat money can really do wonders.. especially if you have Channel necklase.. Gucci boots.. and Dior's Coat to go along with it..



and not to mention celebrity's make-up artist tat charges by the milisecond.. y cant i have money..? so i can save the world and be 'runway material' at the same time.. >.< style="text-decoration: none;">


Fabulous..

wonder if she's also one of those actreses tat cannot accept that they are growing old and goes to 10 thousand plastic surgery to make them look em.. 'prettier'? i actually quite like her.. hope she'll grow old gracefully..


Catch it if you have the time.. go along with your girlfriend to watch it.. you'll enjoy it.. just be careful tho.. =)

Guys with hair..?

Wat is it with guys and hair? goodness.. i went out with my boyfriend, Cody to 1U the whole morning just now.. and when we were about to go home.. he suddenly turn to me and ask..

'wat do u guys think about guy's hair? do u notice them? wat is considered nice?'

em.. the only think i notice about a guy's hair is when he has strikingly weird colour.. like when i go Sg.Wang.. the guys over there have like bright yellow or green hair.. tat's when i notice them..

Seriously though.. wat is this thing with guys and hair? They.. my boyfriend actually.. dunno about the majority of the male species.. is always cutting his hair.. just 2 weeks ago he went into the saloon and spent 50 bucks cutting his hair and now he is complainin tat he needs a haircut..

Here i thought the female species was the vain one here..

Seriously.. who notices hair? do you? and i always don't notice when he cuts his hair.. mayb it's just me.. mayb i am not a normal girl.. hmm.. maybe.. i mean if you are a girl and you change your waist long hair into boy cut.. obviously you'll notice that.. but this?

i once had a super vain guy friend. Oh goodness.. he was in the same class with me when we were in form 2.. he used to tell us how long he would spent on his hair.. he had those grass like super spike-ky hair that would always bring the attention of the disiplinary teacher. do you know how long he spent on his hair to make it that spike-ky? he told us he had to get up at 5 something everyday.. spent about 1 hour doin his hair before he went to school.. oh my god.. imagine being tat vain when you were 14.. and the funny thing was.. d disiplin teacher would notice..catch him.. and ask him to wash it off.. there goes d one hour effort.. i rather sleep longer..

i mean.. i dun just look at a guy and decide immediately whether he has nice hair anot.. i usually look at the whole picture.. aNd.. most of the time.. i just look at a guy.. decide whether he is cute anot.. then look away.. totally forgetting whether he has nice hair anot..

so now.. my boyfriend has a dilemma.. he doesnt know wat to do with his hair. He was tryin to explain to me how weird it is now.. with d hair on his left side not sitting down properly or something lidat.. i tried listening to it but zone out after a while.. sorry dear.. but i love you perfectly now.. dun really mind if your hair has a nice comfortable chair to sit anot..

sigh.. guys.. or maybe just my guy.. =(

New kid on the block..

Aha.. finally started my own blog after so long.. i always thought this blog business was boring.. i mean who would want to read wat other people do? but goodness.. look at the amount of famous bloggers out there.. this just gives me pressure..

wat if no one reads my blogs? wat if I'm too boring? lots of wat ifs goin thru my brain now.. but wait.. wat is the reason I'm doin this anyway? so wat if nobody likes my articles.. haha.. it's ok.. i can be the only reader.. i dun mind. hehe.. =) i just wanna write about my feelings nowadays.. as I'm facing quite.. em.. how should i say.. 'big' challenges now.. oklah.. not so big la. but big enuff.. so maybe i can read back when all this is over and laugh at myself.. haha.. u didn't sleep all those nights for nothing!!! i wish.. >.< waiting for tat day to come..

but back to the blogging thing tho.. so many things to think about.. wat title should i put? em.. it has to be special and me.. but wat??? em.. but i cannot think anymore.. and my creative juice is non existent wan.. so simply put la.. mayb someday I'll change it.. wonder if i can change it.. hmm..

anyway.. i think I'm gonna start decorating my blog now.. hehe.. wish me luck!!!